It's Been Awhile

It’s been a while since I’ve been around,

It took a while to say that you I have found.

It’s been a while since I’ve been walking this place,

It took a while to find your face.

I never would’ve thought that I would feel this way,

I never would’ve thought that I would be writing this today,
As I sit here and write, all I can do is smile.

I think to myself, it’s really been a while

It’s been a while since I’ve had this feeling,

For my heart- right now it’s healing.

And being with you is different from being with the rest,

You help me realize that it’s okay to be my best.

It’s been a while since I’ve been as happy as this,

Each day I wait for that flawless first kiss.

I know it might be different because of what we are,

But I know it will be amazing because of who we are.

You understand me like no one else has before,

And each day you make me laugh more.

You talk to me like you’ve known me forever,

It’s been a while since I’ve said “never say never”.

You fill me with so much happiness,

It’s been a while since I’ve been in a place like this.

A place with flaws, strangeness, and abnormalities,

You’ve showed me how to accept this and you put my mind at ease.

It’s been a while since I’ve felt so inspired,

It’s been a while since I knew what I desired.

You have opened me up and reached deep down in my soul,

You have brought the other part of me out and have made me whole.

I know why I met you now, I’ve finally figured it out,

You must be my angel, there’s no doubt.

I go back and forth with my feelings ‘cause

I know this isn’t what you want,

But soon enough it’s your feelings I’ll have to confront.

It’s been a while since I’ve told someone the way I feel,

It’s been a while since I’ve made a deal.

So let’s make one, a deal that has to do with you and me.

Let’s make a deal where we can see,

See what we can do for one another mentally and emotionally,

Let’s stop speaking hypothetically.

Let’s give it a try,

This thing called you and I.

Let me be your needs,

Let me be your fantasies.

It’s been a while since I’ve let life just flow,

But this time I really want to know.

I want to know what you think when you sit next to me in the car,

I want to know what you think when I can’t go into that bar.

What do you think,When they say, “She can’t drink”?

Does it bother you that I still have yet to see it all?

Does it bother you that there are going to be times

where I may stumble and fall?

But I have already fallen, can’t you tell?

I have fallen for a fallen angel,

I am under a spell.

It’s been a while since I’ve gotten butterflies,

It’s been a while since I’ve seen such gorgeous eyes.

So, since it’s been a while since I started telling you how I feel,

Let’s go ahead and start this deal.

A deal where we are both happy and always smile,

Because my dear angel, it’s been a while.